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“[Name], what’s the matter with you?”

Though you knew Georgianna and Karen were with you, though you knew you were safe in the local mall, and though you knew your houseguest had absolutely no reason to follow you here since it would endanger him more than it would endanger you, you jumped. The fingers that had been playing with the soft fabric of the men’s jacket in front of you lurched away. Georgianna was watching you closely through her dark eyes—far too closely. Realizing it had been her asking the question, you swallowed.


“Don’t give me that,” Georgianna said, and you wished all over again Karen was out there with you, rather than in a dressing room. Georgianna’s eyes were sharpest, and though Kat’s tongue was certainly sharper, Georgianna had a special way of making you want to crawl into bed and never come out. Sometimes this was helpful—other times, not so much. “You’ve been quiet this whole time.”

“I’m always quiet.”

“Not this quiet.”

Georgianna had always been the one you tried your hardest to avoid. Not Kat, who might have looked mean and had a tongue like shattered glass, but usually backed away at the earliest sign of trouble, afraid to watch you self-destruct. Not Karen, who usually fluttered softly around you during any episodes, but felt too bad to prevent them entirely. No, Georgeianna was the one that kicked your butt first and asked questions later. Admitting your mistake to her was the last thing you wanted to do. You’d sooner tell Kat who you’d invited into your home and let her punch your face in than endure Georgianna’s disappointment.

“I’m fine, George. Just a little tired.”

“That’s what you said last time,” she said. “You sleeping all right?”

“Yes, George. I just have a lot to think about.”

“Because you went to the museum?”

You smiled, hoping this was explanation enough. In fact, your recent trip to the Commando’s exhibit had been the farthest thing from your mind. Since you’d given into your houseguest’s demands, all you had thought about was what you were going to do with him—but now you were out and about and you wondered if there was anything you needed to do. Sure, he was scary, but why did you believe him? Maybe it was just what Kat had said what felt like so long ago: This guy had gone through some tough stuff. And what had he promised you in return? Tough stuff. Maybe he wasn’t even who he said he was. Maybe you were just an enormous sucker.

“If that’s the case,” Georgianna interrupted your attempts to soothe yourself, “why’d you come along just to buy a bunch of men’s clothing?”

You did your best not to wince and simply smile your blandest smile again. “I got some extra money. I thought it might be nice to donate it to someone else.”

Georgianna looked at you, long and hard. You gazed back, willing her not to read the lie in your every word. It wasn’t that you wanted to lie, especially not to the three women you loved more than anything else in the world, but he had said they were in danger, too. Whether it was from him or his—people didn’t really matter. You had to keep Georgianna safe, and Kat and Karen. That was worth lying more than to protect a murderer before you knew he was a murderer.

‘Please forgive me.’ The prayer asked for serenity to accept the things you could not change, and goodness did you need that now. You couldn’t change what you had already done. This man was in your house, in your life, and threatening all the aspects of it that you had come to love in the past year and a half. If nothing else, you needed to keep your head.

Just before Georgianna could demand a real explanation, Karen came bouncing out of her dressing room to model a sundress.

“Oo, that looks cute!” she squealed at the jacket you’d been fondling. “You getting all this stuff for that guy? The one crashing on your couch?”

“Guy?” Georgianna asked, eyes narrowing slightly in your direction. “You mean that same guy Karen mentioned last Friday?”

Karen cringed. “Oopsie.”

“I didn’t know he’d stayed this long.” Maybe Georgianna was pretending to be casual, but you knew she was worried. Why wouldn’t she be? You kept yourself on a strict schedule, and you ran a tight ship. Guys weren’t part of either of those. You’d given up on dating, given up on romance, given up on sex in your attempt to keep yourself clean. Such activities were too tainted for you to remember pleasantly, or feel comfortable safely inserting yourself into again. During your chosen sober moments, you’d never had a man over—not in over a year now.

“Oh, I’m sure he’s safe, George!” Karen rushed to your rescue. You shot her subtle appreciative look. She was better at lying than you were—or, well, since you’d decided to give up lying until the evening before, anyway. “I met him, actually. Didn’t do anything dangerous.”

You noticed that she neglected to mention that your guest had been asleep when she had met him, and that she’d also threatened to beat him over the head with her purse for scaring the heebie-jeebies out of you following you home. Georgianna eyed her suspiciously for one second too long, though, and that had Karen ducking back into the dressing room quicker than you could blink. Georgianna sighed as she slumped on the wall.

“You gonna be done anytime soon?” she called.

“Probably not!” Karen sang back. Judging by the amount of clothes she had taken inside with her, you privately agreed. Privately being the key word, though Georgianna wasn’t about to let you off the hook that easy. She caught your eye and gestured for the store entrance.

“Let’s grab a bite to eat.”

Not that you looked forward to being alone with Georgianna, but you gathered up your purchases and headed after her into the food court. One parfait and half an iced-tea later, and you were starting to feel a little cheerier. You could still look forward to your guest having changed his mind and run off while you were gone, and your friends weren’t prying nearly as badly as you had expected them to. Then your companion had to go and ruin things by sighing.

“Look,” she said as you stiffened in anticipation, “I’m sorry about earlier. You’re a big girl. If you want to keep guys over, you can. I just want you to be safe. That’s all.”

Even after Georgianna changed the subject to something more comfortable, it took you a couple of minutes to feel up to responding. You slowly finished your drink and let your muscles loosen before you made any attempt at all. “‘Course I’m going to be safe,” you answered finally. “Why wouldn’t I be safe? I’m still going to see my sponsor. I go to meetings every week. I don’t want to go back.”

Georgianna regarded you over her soda. “That’s not the only thing you have to worry about these days, you know?” Then she surprised you by smiling and shaking her head before combing her fingers through her short, dark bangs. “Sorry, sorry. I’m just a nervous wreck lately. We keep getting calls about that ghost assassin. Kinda wish they’d just call the ghostbusters on his ass.”

She looked at you shyly, and you realized this was George’s way of making a joke. You chuckled to humor her, but inside your intestines were tying themselves into knots. They were looking for him. Maybe that was good, though? The news had had plenty photographs of the carnage left in this man’s wake. But if they found him with you, then there would be no way to explain that you hadn't been a part of that carnage, too.

“No ghosts in my apartment, George. Promise,” you assured her, smiling. Even that hurt. What on earth were you turning into?

Bucky BarnesxReader: Tastes a Little [Ch. 16]
Part 16 of 100 of Tastes a Little like Freedom, a Little like Fear

Writing short chapters is hard. Writing long stories makes it difficult to pace. What have I got myself into?

Previous Chapter: 15. Backfire
Current Chapter: 16. Honesty
Next Chapter: TBA

Thor gave up pretty quickly on trying to convince you to eat. Part of you felt stupidly disappointed about this—having anyone concerned over your wellbeing was touching—but you mostly felt relieved. You could not have touched your plate of expensive meat if you had wanted to. How could you consider putting something in your stomach when you felt you could barely get oxygen into your lungs? Every eye in the room was on you, or so it felt. The longer you did nothing of interest, however, the more people turned away to their previous occupations of dancing and eating and talking. Your gaze did fall once upon Darcy to see her grin, wink, and gesture toward Thor, but you looked away from her quickly enough to ignore that.

Did she really think it was so easy? For Darcy, maybe it was. She could sit up there, eat, schmooze, play nice with her new husband. You wouldn’t have wanted her in this position any more than you wanted to be in your position, though. The only person you wanted up here was Jane, and Jane was nowhere to be found.

Your trembling hands balled into fists around the tablecloth. It was the only thing you could do to distract yourself from the burning in your eyes and the churning in your stomach. Unfortunately, this was something that Thor noticed. “Are you alright?” he asked.

“I need some fresh air,” you answered, throat so tight that the words came out as a whisper.

“I think that would be ill-advised. If you could only wait—”

You were already on your feet. If leaving would cause problems, then by God you were going to leave. Because what were you other than a problem? Of course everyone turned to look at you again, look at the stupid, gawky, out-of-place Midgardian woman that had drunkenly stumbled into their midst. 'Let them look', you thought as you tried your best to walk primly to the balcony doors across the floor from the head table. What did it matter? Your father-in-law already hated you, as did your husband, as did your best friend. You had no one left to offend, so you might as well do what you damn well pleased.

You kept your back straight and your eyes forward until your hand found the doorknob. As soon as you pushed out onto the balcony, you allowed your face to crumple. Your back stayed the same even once the doors swung shut behind you. The sounds of music and laughter that you could not help but assume was at your expense cut off with a faint click. This allowed you to be alone a last, to finally cry…but you didn’t. You fixed your eyes on the sparkling, unfamiliar constellations above and tried to simply breathe.

Perhaps the oxygen up here wherever the heck you were supposed to be was thinner, or maybe it was cleaner, but whatever the reason, it made your head spin. Those distant pinpricks of light danced around you until you let out a long-held breath and let your forehead fall against your arms resting on the railing. “I really am an idiot.”

“’scuse me, but this balcony’s already reserved for pity party, party of one? You’re gonna have to wait your turn.”

At this point, you were tired even of being startled by people. You lifted your head and found Clint perched a few feet away on the very same balcony you were supporting yourself on. He wasn’t dressed for the occasion. In fact, he was wearing the same clothes you’d seen him in last—you thought. Really, you hadn’t been in the best state of mind to notice such things lately. You wished you were. Now here was another of Jane’s friends to disappoint. “What are you doing here?” you asked dully.

“I could ask you the same question,” he answered. “Don’t you ever knock? Está ocupada.”

“No es un baño, asno.”

Clint smiled as he hopped off the balcony. “I’m impressed.”

You snorted, turning your eyes back out onto the view below. “Don’t be. Mom’s fluent, but I can only remember a few bits and pieces.”

“Just figured you could do with a bit of a boost. Mind if I ask what you’re doing out here for real? This is your big shindig, isn’t it?”

“Why aren’t you in there? It isn’t your big shindig, is it?”

Clint snorted, and rested his chin on his folded arms. “So it’s like that, huh?”

“Is it like what?”

He just shook his head. “You homesick?”

You tossed him a funny look. Why were you standing out here talking to Darcy’s flame when the guy that was supposedly your flame was waiting inside for you to come back to dinner? “Why would I be homesick?”

“Dunno. Talkin’ about your mom, ditching your party, speaking Spanish. I wouldn’t blame you if you were. We’re a long way from home, and it doesn’t sound like they’re letting you go anytime soon.”

“Well, maybe that’s for the best. I was getting pretty sick of the place anyway.” Your attempt at sarcasm was sorry indeed; the look Clint shot you afterward was clearly pitying. He was nice enough to pretend he believed it, though.

“Mind if I stay?”

“Why do you want to stay here?” Okay, so you hadn’t heard about the Avengers, or Jane’s superhero boyfriend, or said boyfriend’s crazy brother’s attempts to run the Earth over. But SHIELD you’d heard of—who hadn’t lately?—and weren’t agents bigwigs in the long run? Clint let out another single bark of laughter.

“Why would I want to go back there?” he asked, looking more amused than anything. “My best friend just wants to give me a lecture, and I’ve got a feeling my boss is pret-ty pissed off at me. It’d be best to lay low until they get over it. Say a few months?”

“Yeah, well, everyone here is pissed off at me, and my best friend probably won’t speak to me ever again,” you sighed. “Why are you asking me?”

“Well, you’re the princess, aren’t you?”

“Hardly.” Despite yourself, you chuckled. “You want to be princess?”

“If it’ll get me to stay, sure,” said Clint. “Though I’m not sure I can pull off that outfit.”

That had you laughing. The feeling was so alien at this point that it almost hurt. You reached over to shove Clint on the shoulder. “Stop it. You’re making me laugh.”

“Good. You could use a laugh, I think. Unless you met Thor’s kid brother down in the basement?”

“Oh, yeah. He’s a laugh riot.”

“I thought so, too,” Clint said. “Well, if he didn’t make you laugh, at least I could. If I move here permanently, you’d be my princess, too, eh?”

“Don’t let Darcy hear you saying that,” you muttered darkly. He laughed again.

“What does she care? Having the time of her life with two brawny alien guys. I bet she feels like a princess already.”

You had a pretty good idea of what Darcy felt, and it wasn’t like a princess. If anything, her ecstasy at the moment had more to do with successfully making Clint jealous than getting some grinding in with a couple of benevolent war gods. But you weren’t about to let Clint on to that notion; you had enough romantic problems of your own to worry about without playing matchmaker for those two knuckleheads. So instead of bringing any of that up, you shook your head.

“What would you even do here?” you asked. He shrugged a second time.

“Court jester? If I can make you laugh, that’s the hard part. Thor laughs at pretty much anything.”

You turned a quizzical eye to Clint. That idea didn’t jar at all with what you knew of your husband. Thor appeared to you to be hot tempered and cranky. Then again, you had just married him against either of your wills. You probably weren’t the best person in the world for him to turn to for laughter, let alone anything else. Clint and Thor were friends, however; you didn’t expect Clint to appreciate your point of view any more than anyone else around here did.

“You’ll have to ask him, then. I don’t think the in-laws are going to be keen on me making decisions on anything anytime soon.” Or ever.

“Bummer. I could get behind not making decisions for a while, though. Suppose we could trade outfits and lives. I don’t think I’d look as beautiful as you do, tho—”

Clint broke off as the double doors leading to the balcony opened. Light and laughter spilled out from behind the dark figure standing in between. When he stepped closer, you could see he was one of Thor’s friends: the blond one, the one you remembered that you didn’t particularly like.

There you are!” he cried delightedly, his eyes falling upon you. Then he saw Clint, and smirked. “Am I interrupting something?”

“No,” you answered with a scowl.

“No need to hide anything. Polygamy goes both ways. If our beloved ruler may have a wife and a lover, I see no reason that you should not have a lover and a husband yourself.”

“We weren’t doing anything. Just talking. Like friends do,” Clint said, coming to your rescue. You offered him a thankful smile, which on second thought was probably a bad idea. Fandral’s lips twisted up in a smirk even as he made a polite bow in Clint’s direction.

“Of course. Pardon my mistake.”

“There any reason you’re out here, too?” Clint asked conversationally. “It’s getting a little crowded out here. We’d rather commiserate in peace, if you don’t mind.”

“Commiserate!” Fandral cried in what was obviously the most fakely dramatic voice he could manage. “And why might the two of you be commiserating, may I ask? And why together?”

“He was here first,” you grumbled.

“You wanna join in?” Clint asked.

“Oh, no. I would never dream of commiserating on such a wonderful night. One of my best friends is married. What is there to mope about?” Fandral chuckled to himself, shook his head, then fixed you with a gaze much more sober than you expected. “I came out here to find you, in fact.”

That didn’t bode well. Still, you kept your narrowed eyes glued to him. You didn’t need Fandral to find out just how good he was at getting under your skin. “Why do you need me?”

“It is not I that need you, Lady [Name]. It is the people of Asgard!”

With a dramatic flourish, he pushed the doors back open. The crowd inside had parted, creating an aisle down the middle of the glittering floor. Hundreds if not thousands of eyes blinked owlishly out into the darkness at the trio standing there. There at the end of the line stood Thor, his eyes on you, his arms stiff at his sides.

“Yikes,” Clint muttered. You couldn’t agree more.

“It is rather past time, you know,” Fandral said.

“Time for what?” you demanded.

“Why, time for you and your husband’s first kiss.”

“Oh, jeez,” came a faint voice from inside. “Excuse me. I said excuse me!”

You knew that voice, much to your dismay. Sure enough, out of the close-packed throng, Darcy appeared, shoving and grunting until she finally popped out from between a couple of women with raised eyebrows. She seemed not to notice the attention she had elicited, pausing only to adjust her fancy (Earth) dress with a small “humph” before stomping up the aisle over to where your trio was standing so very cozily. “[Name],” she hissed, as though everyone on the entire planet (or in the entire Realm, whatever) weren’t already staring at her.

“What, Darcy?” you asked at normal volume. She glanced around at herself, then picked her way slowly over to where you were standing by Clint. As was the norm at this point, she loftily ignored him.

“You’re wanted inside.”

I already told her that,” Fandral said.

“And you did a great job of it, seeing as she still isn’t inside,” Darcy said. “You really have no idea how to convince a woman to do anything, do you?”

Fandral spluttered for a split second, just long enough for Darcy to hold her palm out to him. “Look, Wesley, I don’t want to hear anything outta that mouth unless it’s 'as you wish.'”

“My name isn’t Wesley,” Fandral said at last.

Darcy rolled her eyes, then gestured to you. “Come on, let me see.”

“See what?” you asked.

Instead of answering, she stepped closer to peer at your face. Whatever she found there, she didn’t say. She just grabbed your wrist and pulled you toward the open doors. You tugged her backward, a feat made easier by her Midgardian high-heels. Seeing that everyone was still staring at you, you yanked the doors shut. “I don’t think they’re going to like that much,” she remarked once the four of you had been left in darkness once again.

“I don’t care.”

“What’s your problem?” Darcy asked. You took a deep breath to inform her that the fact that Thor was a buff, alien prince did not make this whole affair easier to accept, but she darted around behind you and started shoving you toward the doors again. “You’re not crying or anything, so just get out there and do some making out, and then you can go to bed, okay?”

This was somehow better than Fandral’s condescending urging from before? Darcy’s continued tugging on your hand eventually got the best of you. That, or the crowd you knew was waiting silent on the other side of those doors. God, you’d given lectures before, discussions on articles, but almost always with a few mouthfuls of schnapps or the like, and never in some alien dress that felt like it was precariously close to falling off. You swallowed around your suddenly dry mouth and threw one terrified look at Clint. He wasn’t even looking at you. His soft eyes were on Darcy’s back. Of course.

“Ah, [Name], if you have a moment?”

Darcy shot Fandral a look, but he wasn't watching her, and with his arm across the door and his presumable Asgardian strength, opening the door was impossible until he got what he wanted anyway. You looked at him with as much disdain as you could. As usual, the only effect that this had on Fandral was his finding you more amusing still. He curled his mustache with a flourish and made you yet another tiny bow.

“No need to look like that, your highness. I wished only for a bit of your time tomorrow afternoon. Volstagg, Hogun, and I feel that it would please Thor greatly if we were to make sure that his wife felt welcome. Surely you could not turn down such a request?”

You could. What was more, you would. But not right now. Later. After you had got through this next humiliation. After you had the chance to find out what spending a bit of time with Thor’s friends would really entail. After you tried again (without really trying) to be so off putting that these people would have to let you go back home. Going home had been humiliating when you had set out from your abandoned apartment on Earth, but now it seemed the best thing that could happen to you.

“Yeah, yeah, pencil her in for two o’ clock,” you heard Darcy grumble. “Now get out of the way!”

Fandral lifted his arm and with one final tug, you and Darcy stumbled through the doors. Your little huddle out there seemed to have bored the crowd, because they had returned to milling about. This was an unspeakable relief—or it might have been, had Fandral not followed the two you in and cleared his throat. The sound got the attention of those closest to the balcony. His decision to shout, “Ladies and gentleman, may I present the Lady [Name]?” got everyone else’s.

You felt the familiar prickling nerves at the ends of your limbs. Suddenly the walk up the makeshift aisle and up to where you had been picking at food with Thor seemed a lot longer. If this prickling went on too long, it would be a wonder for you to make it three feet before passing out. But you would not run. You would not make yourself more of a fool in front of those people—especially not Fandral, whose smug smile you swore you could feel aimed at even your back. Knuckles white around the skirt of your Asgardian dress, you took an enormous breath, set your eyes on your husband, and took a step.

Walking was something you were capable of doing, and doing better sober. With this in mind, you forced yourself to take another step, and another, and another. Soon you could no longer feel Darcy hovering behind you, just the hundreds of eyes on your stiff shoulder blades and face. Slowly, the visages of your new family came into better view: the impatient, sharp scowl from Odin, the soft, sympathetic smile from Friga…and the stiff, almost frightened expression of Thor. As your first foot reached the raised dais, someone in the back of the throng began to clap. Several more started up when Thor took your hand pulled you over to his side. It seemed a real round of applause was about to start—until Odin stepped up to the plate.

He kept his eyes purposely away from you. Surely you weren’t just imagining that. The room grew so quiet that you could have heard a fork drop. You almost wished Darcy would drop one just for kicks. Of course, this was the one time that she remained a part of backdrop. Seconds passed. A bead of sweat ran down the side of your face. If you sprinted from the room, how long would it take them to find you? No. You swallowed. Peeking at Thor’s expression let you see it flat and dull, the first time you’d ever really seen it like that. Around Jane, he was all smiles. After ruining their lives so thoroughly already, how could you make things worse by trying to hide? He’d have to come after; Odin would make sure of it.

With so many eyes on you, you couldn’t close yours. Instead your fingers tightened around Thor’s hand so hard that any normal would have flinched. He didn’t. He didn’t even seem to realize you were there, so focused was he on what his father was about to say. Maybe Thor still hoped Odin would see sense and let the two out of this. Surely your behavior at this gala hadn’t done anything further to endear yourself to your father-in-law.

“Friends,” Odin said stiffly, “family.”

Oh, cripes. For real? They had bad speeches in this Realm, too? Were there any benefits to being stuck here? You wished you’d kept your old apartment instead of ditching everything to have one last hurrah with Jane before going home. That last hurrah really had been doozy. Not that things had been going stellar before Garrison ditched you—but it was better than this.

“We join here this evening to celebrate the rather…sudden union of my son, Prince Thor.”

A few voices rose in the back; your eyes flashed over to see Thor’s friends cheering. Sif was noticeably absent. You had seen her earlier, but it wasn’t like you were friends with her, or that she any obligation to be present. This didn’t seem anymore her type of party than your own. But you were getting distracted, and Odin continued to drone on:

“Though we do not know much of his chosen consort, we do understand that she is from Midgard, and therefore her life is fleeting and frail. As it is, Prince Thor has promised to love and protect for what remains of that fleeting life.” Terrified enough of the sea of strange faces turned up toward you, it didn’t take much to convince you to turn and shoot your father-in-law a glare. As it turned out, this did nothing to effect any Norse god, let alone their king, and he didn’t falter once in his speech. “We ask that you as well cherish her, as long as she is with us. Without further ado: Prince Thor, and Princess [Name].”

Your stomach gave a horrible lurch at the word princess. All of this was like a horrible twisted reality of a dream you’d had only in your youngest years. Only instead of a ball gown, you were wearing an ill-fitting dress lent to you by your mother-in-law. Only instead of your hair done all up in curls, it was pulled up in some entirely non-flattering alien style. Only instead of marrying your true love that you met at a ball while escaping doing your chores, you were marrying your best friend’s boyfriend that you’d met drunk while trying to escape all your poor choices up to that point. If you ever met your fairy godmother, you were going to give her the swiftest kick in the rear she’d ever felt.

“Well, what are you waiting for?” called a familiar someone in the back. “Kiss her!”

Little though you knew your acidic look would do to Fandral, you still tried to find him the crowd. The attempt did nothing but make you more nauseous. Out there in the crowd, your friends’ faces seemed to stand out the most. Darcy looked close to chewing on her fingernails—with stress or anticipation, you couldn’t say. Clint had actually bothered to come inside to watch, much to your distress. All you could say that was good in the situation was that Jane wasn’t around. Your heart gave a painful squeeze, but you had no time to mourn the loss of younger dreams of having her around for a wedding. You were just glad she didn’t have to see what followed: Thor gracelessly bent to push his lips against you.

The kiss was awkward. The kiss was hard. His hands moved up to grip your upper arms when those watching murmured appreciatively. Thank—what did they say here? Odin? Bor?—whatever deity these people had that there was no tongue action involved. The kiss was long, but void of passion, though when you finally broke apart, Thor’s face was as pink as yours felt.  Someone (you suspected Darcy) started a slow clap that grew and grew until Thor and you stood surrounded by a throng applauding you both for something you’d probably done more skillfully with more beloved people hundreds of times before. Embarrassed, all you could do was cling to his hand while you waited for this agonizing evening to draw to an end.

End it did. Whether or not your mother-in-law simply desired to take pity on you, or because she could read your mind and knew you were this close to starting to scream like a deranged woman, she fluidly came to stand in front of you and Thor to smile graciously at the guests.

“Thank you ever so much for coming,” she said. “I hope you all have had lovely evenings. You are welcome, of course, to stay however long you like and partake in the food and drink. I, however, believe it is time to turn in. With your blessings, my lord.” She swept Odin a curtsy that he returned with an annoyed wave of his hand. After turning back to the guests and bowing her head to them, Friga walked gracefully of the dais and disappeared. Thor waited only until he could be sure his mother had left the room before he looked at his father.

“We are leaving,” he told him. When Odin scowled and opened his mouth, Thor spun away. “Now.”

You were sure that this wasn’t going to win you any points with your new father-in-law-slash-ruler, but at this point you were desperate enough to be gone yourself that you didn’t argue. Thor lifted an enormous hand to wave at his guests. Hesitantly, you waved as well. This was met with a few titters from the corner of the room you’d last seen Darcy and Thor’s friends in. Then, with your hand still in his other, he turned to lead you from the platform. For once, you followed eagerly, even when Thor continued on in silence. At least that gave you the opportunity to check behind you ever few paces to make sure that no one was following. No one did. And even if they had, Thor seemed so intent on getting the two of you elsewhere that he wasn’t likely to have stopped no matter who they were.

When he pulled to a stop at last, you were surprised for a moment to find yourself back in front of his quarters—a testament to how tired and frazzled this whole ordeal had made you. Of course he had brought back you back to his quarters. They were also your quarters now.

The thought made what felt like a bucket of ice cascade down your insides. You had no idea if the concept of a honeymoon meant anything to Asgardians, but—oh no. You weren’t prepared. It wasn’t even a matter of being physically prepared; you really didn’t think you could mentally handle sleeping with Thor that night, or any other time for that matter. Jane still had to be in love with him. How could you betray your best friend like that?

You anxiety came to an abrupt halt when you noticed that Thor had already abandoned you by the doorway and headed in the direction of what you assumed (having only seen your own bedroom and bathing area) was his bedroom. Suddenly you were completely alone. Having been around people all day, you would have thought you would enjoy the sensation. Unfortunately, now that it came, you found yourself almost terrified at the thought of being left to your own thoughts and feelings, especially considering what you had just left: the scene of your very first kiss with your husband. After pausing to make sure that Dalla wasn’t lurking somewhere behind you, you scurried after Thor through the massive sitting area.

“Can I help you?” he asked as you fingers brushed softly at his admittedly impressive bicep. Immediately you remembered where your thoughts had been headed before he’d left, and you turned what was sure to be an impressive shade of dark pink.

“Where are you going?” you asked instead of answering. As impressive as Thor probably looked naked, you weren’t in the mood to see that, not now—possibly not ever. He lifted his eyebrows.

“To bed,” he answered, as though this was obvious.

“Oh. Uh…”

“Your bedroom is that way,” he said, pointing back the way you had come from.

“No, I know that. I just…” you shrugged. To Jane you might have been able to admit that you’d never been able to handle this amount of stress on your own. You hardly knew Thor, though, and the way Garrison had reacted to your clinginess didn’t make the idea of confessing to your strange new husband appealing in the slightest. When you did not make to explain yourself, Thor shook your hand off his arm and took a step into the bedroom beyond the doorway.

“We are married,” said Thor. “That I accept. We will stay that way because it is the only way to make sure my father does not behave rashly, and the only way to keep the Realm together. What I do not have to accept is us being any more than that.”

“Meaning?” you asked.

“Meaning I have my room. You have yours. They are still our quarters. My father will have no reason to complain.” His face was like a statue. You felt your own warming quickly. Back to square one, then: Thor thought this was your fault. As though he could read your mind, he softened somewhat. “I am sorry, [Name], but I do not love you.”

“Not that it’s any big secret, but I don’t love you either. We’re sort of stuck, though. I’m not asking for a honeymoon. Just—you know, some companionship would be nice.”

He paused, then shook his head. “Not tonight.”


“We will figure things come the morning. For now, all I desire is to sleep. You should sleep as well. I doubt you slept much last night, and I am sure that tomorrow will be just as trying today, if not more. Goodnight, [Name].”

Without waiting for you to complain, Thor closed the door shut behind him. You stood there for another minute or so. Why, you didn’t know. Thor didn’t come back, and you weren’t sure if you even wanted him to. Your hand reached out for the knob, but you never did find out if Thor had gone so far as to lock you out. He was right. This was your fault. If you had never intruded on his and Jane’s vacation getaway, they would probably still be snuggled up in bed back in Vegas, enjoying room service for breakfast.

You turned away with a sigh to trudge back to the other bedroom. Your bedroom, you recalled once you had found your things on your bed where Dalla had placed them. There you were, a tiny speck amongst a huge room and huger quarters with nothing that belonged to you save for the tiny pack in your hands. Sleep wasn’t going to come easy here, that was for sure. As you slipped out of the room, you pulled your cell phone out of the bag. Having a sleepover with Thor was out. Maybe Jane felt just as desperate for company as you did.

"Did u get ur bridge stuff worked out?" you typed into the phone. As you did, you settled onto the comfortable couch back in the living room. At least this room wasn’t “yours” exactly. You felt less like you were being watched there, and less like Dalla was bound to pop up at any second to ask if you needed anything. Maybe you could even sleep. Staring at your phone screen, you felt your eyes start to itch with exhaustion, but you wanted to talk to Jane so badly. You waited. And waited. And waited. "Message failed to send." Sighing, you rolled over and let your dying cellphone fade back into darkness. No service in Norse God space. Just figured. It wasn’t like Jane was going to talk to you anyway, right? For now, all you could do was soothe yourself with the idea that you’d talk to her in the morning. Jane always made things better. Always. And then there was that meeting with Thor’s friends.

Crap. Thor’s friends.

No more thinking for you that night. No, you put your phone down and rolled over. Even then in the dim light, it took you hours to finally drift off to sleep.

Thor OdinsonxReader: Adventures [Ch. 8]
Part 8 of 20 of Adventures in a Realm Without Divorce Court.

Frankly, I am surprised at how popular this story turned out. I always write outlines for my stories, and I did for this one...but I did it in the midst of writing a bunch of final papers while getting my master's degree and it is crap. So I'm really "pantsing" this story for once. But I am happy that people are enjoying it. I'll try not to take as long next time.

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Over your six years of attendance at Hogwarts School of Witchcraft and Wizardry, you had heard a lot of cockamamie ideas that had only grown in preposterousness as you aged. By the time you were in third year, everyone swore that that forbidden corridor lead to none other than Filch’s coffin. Fourth year, they claimed that if you left the water running too long brushing your teeth, Potter’s snakes would squirm out of the tap and try to eat you. Fifth year, even some of the older students were convinced that a werewolf lived in the Shrieking Shack. This year, it had been asserted that You-Know-Who was back. No matter how ludicrous such rumors got, however, none could match the ridiculous statement that had just left your transfiguration teacher’s mouth.

“What?” you asked into the silence that followed.

You really had no idea why you were in her office. The End of Year Feast had just wrapped up. Not only had the entire thing been uncomfortable and depressing for your entire House, but you had packing (and probably some crying) to do before you left the next day. Surely Professor McGonagall had not requested you visit for something as silly as this. Your impatience to be gone was almost tangible—but it was nothing in comparison to hers.

“Longbottom, [L Name].” Her nostrils went white, a sure sign that your impertinence was noticed and unappreciated. “I need you to help him with his transfiguration over the holidays.”

You weren’t sure why, but your stomach felt suddenly full of ice. Not that you had plans for the summer, exactly, but any that cropped up certainly wouldn’t include teaching inept first years wand-waving techniques—let alone someone on their way to their O.W.L.s!

“Longbottom…” you said, playing desperately for time to think of a good enough reason to reject Professor McGonagall’s request. “Neville Longbottom?”

“Yes, Neville Longbottom,” said Professor McGonagall. “Surely you’ve heard of him. He has lessons in here while you’re aiding me every Tuesday.”

“You want me to tutor him this summer?” Unable to suppress your whine or the wince that followed, you slid lower in your chair. Oh, you’d heard of Neville Longbottom, all right. Who couldn’t hear his many mishaps in the middle of class each week? You could avoid the Gryffindor students as much as you wanted; eventually the horrified screaming broke through even your stony façade. Apparently sensing your immense trepidation, Professor McGonagall softened somewhat.

“I wouldn’t ask if I didn’t think you were fully capable of helping the poor boy, [L Name].”

Favorite teacher be damned, she was not winning you over that easily. “He’s not of age yet,” you hedged. “He’s not allowed to use magic during the holidays.”

She sighed. “Don’t be dense. You know as well as I do that the Ministry can’t detect underage magic in pureblood homes. But if it will ease your conscience,” her dry tone indicated she knew very well this was not your real reason for refusing, “we have already cleared the lessons with the Ministry.”

Again you hesitated.

“His grandmother has agreed to pay you one galleon, eight sickles and nine knuts a week for your time.”

Better, but…

She sighed a second time. “And I suppose, should you prove yourself responsible enough to handle the task, upon your return next year, we could look into this animagus lessons you wanted.”

Towards the end of this final offer, you could have sworn you saw a flicker of a smile. It was a smile you did not share. You’d do it—of course you’d do it; legal, supervised animagus instruction before your N.E.W.T.s was more than you could have hoped for—but that didn’t mean you had to be happy about it, or that you submitted for any other reason than that you still had a lot of packing and tearing up to do.

“Fine,” you said quickly. Not the politest way to seal the deal, but Professor McGonagall must have been eager to return to her room as well.

“Thank you,” she said as she stood. “I’ll send an owl along with all the details tomorrow. And [L Name]?”

“Yes, Professor?” you asked from the door.

“Don’t worry yourself over much about his improvement. If he can vanish a mouse without vanishing his fingers, I’ll consider your tutoring a success.”



The rumbling of the train the next morning did little to distract you from the prospect of your miserable summer: Cedric dead, your father’s predictable obsession with You-Know-Who’s return, and tutoring a wizard so terrible that he’d once crossed Hermione Granger’s hand with an aardvark. There wasn’t even the Quidditch World Cup to break up the monotony. Fantastic. Tears, tempers and tutoring! Much more of this and you would have to reevaluate who your favorite teacher was.

Most of the other students were packed together in herds. They jumped at every noise and refused to discuss any subject other than He-Who-Must-Not-Be-Named, or the unfortunate passing of your House-mate, or whether or not Harry Potter had anything to do with either. Knowing you had these discussions to look forward to for the remainder of your break, you had ensconced yourself in one of the empty compartments toward the back of the train. Unfortunately, your thoughts still echoed that of your peers. Clearly, you were doomed to go mad this summer.

Just when you were considering sending an owl ahead for a room at St. Mungo’s, a distraction arrived in the form of some peeking tom outside your door. His round moon-face lit up scarlet when he caught you peeking back. You must have been too pathetic to scare him off, though, because soon after he was fumbling at the handle.

“Excuse me,” said the boy when he finally poked his head in, “but are you [F Name] [L Name]?”

“Who wants to know?” After all, your nerves wearing thing didn’t endear you to the remaining Hufflepuffs left behind in your previous seating area. Not that this kid looked Hufflepuff, of course.

“Me,” he answered.

“Who’re you?”

“Neville. Neville Longbottom.”

Your eyes widened. It was worse than you had expected. Neville was round, pink-faced, and covered in a slight sheen of sweat. He looked more like an overgrown first-year than a fourth-year. What was more, his bright cheeks appeared to be coated in a thin layer of soot. Oh no. This guy couldn’t even use a hairbrush; how could anyone expect him to use a wand?

“Can I help you with something?” you asked after this startled pause.

“Well, Professor McGonagall said—”

“I’m not starting your lessons right now.”

To Neville’s credit, he looked perturbed by your interruption for only a second. Then he pulled himself together to stand straight as he offered you a letter. “N-No,” said Neville. “I just came by to give you everything you’ll need to get to my gran's place next week.”

Eyeing him suspiciously, you pulled the paper from between his pudgy fingers. Sure enough, there were the details Professor McGonagall had promised you: Neville’s address, the items he needed to learn before he even started to prepare for his O.W.L.s, and a neatly written note you assumed was from his grandmother. Once you had seen each of these, you swung your narrowed gaze back up at Neville.

“I thought McGonagall was going to send these with an owl,” you said. In response, Neville turned pinker.

“She—she was. But then she ran into me this morning and said since I had made it there before the post, I might as well take it to you instead. Said it would give us a chance to—to get to know each other.”


This was not the invitation that Neville took it to be. No sooner had your grunt faded into silence than did he settle onto the seat opposite you. Well, maybe he was sick of all the Dark Lord and Potter dribble, too. You didn’t own this particular compartment. Assuming this would be the end of it, you returned your attention to the sunny scene outside the window. Of course, it would look like a proper summer once you knew you wouldn’t have a proper summer. You blinked. There was someone watching you again. Of course, it was only Neville, staring at you from his seat. It had been a long time since a boy stared at you like that. Your skin started to crawl.


“Is it true?” he asked.

“Is what true?”

“That you’re on track to become an animagus.”

“Oh. That.”

“Well, is it?”

You shrugged, like this didn’t matter—though obviously it did. It mattered more than anything else happening in your life right now. “I hope so.”

“Professor McGonagall says you’re the best in her class. All of her classes.”

Such praise could not be received lightly. Aware though you were that McGonagall did not toy about with selecting her upperclassmen aids and that she had said she only gave you this assignment due to her faith in you, it was flattering to hear from someone else. You only rather hoped that such praise was not being given to unduly raise Neville’s spirits. “It’s my only good class,” you assured him. “I’m no Hermione Granger, so if you’re expecting lessons at her level…” Another shrug.

“No, no!” Neville said eagerly, another glow of pink entering his face. “I don’t care, so long as I stop transplanting cactuses into my ears. I was in the Hospital Wing for a week last time!”

You gaped. Neville smiled.

What on earth had you gotten yourself into?


A week and a half later, and you weren’t exactly enthusiastic to be headed off to your first tutorial session, but you were more than enthusiastic to leave your house. Harry Potter this, The Dark Lord that, and for heaven’s sake, what about the Malfoys? The household was in an uproar, and who cared about one distant daughter caught up in the current? You spent your days curled up atop your mattress and your nights binge eating in the kitchen until the house elves noticed. It was about time you got out of there, preferably before you started pulling your own hair out.

As you got your first whirlwind look at your destination, however, you weren’t sure that you had landed yourself anywhere more appealing. Longbottom Manor was just that: another pureblood manor home, though not as well-kept or glossy as your own. The kitchen you spun into was more brown than anything else, and crammed with magical knickknacks wherever they would fit—though “fit” wasn’t the word you would have used. The overall affect wasn’t too terrible, though. The whole room gave off the impression that people lived there—perhaps the two people sitting at the well-worn table, watching the well-worn clock.

They looked up as the fire around you died away, and you got a good look at Neville and a woman you could only assume was his grandmother. She might have looked respectable, save for the mangled stuffed vulture perched atop her hat. The sight reminded you distinctly of another rumor from the past year, something involving a boggart, some third-years, and Professor Snape in such garb. You very nearly grinned at the memory. Only the past week of not smiling saved you. Your muscles cramped at the mere thought of exerting themselves in such a fashion.

“Well, Neville?” the woman barked. “Aren’t you going to introduce me to your friend?”

Neville scrambled none too gracefully to his feet and over to you. The woman stood herself as Neville, a brighter red than you had seen him yet (even after that accident with the lobsters back in March), gestured at you from his place at your side. “[Name], this is my gran, Augusta Longbottom. Gran…this is [F Name] [L Name]. My tutor.”

“Pleasure to meet you, dear,” she said, grasping your hand between both of yours while smiling surprisingly warmly. This warmth evaporated when her eyes fell on her grandson again. “You’ll have to forgive him. Neville’s a good boy, but a bit too clumsy for manners. Or transfiguration, as I’m sure you’ve learned!” A peal of laughter escaped her while a weary sigh escaped Neville. “His father was a great hand in the subject, but Neville...Well, bless you for spending your summer trying to help him.”

You forced yourself to smile this time. “My pleasure.” 'Think of animagus lessons,' you reminded yourself sternly. Surely you could get through even this in exchange for that. Once you managed that, you could escape not just this situation, but the one back home. All you needed was to endure for one more school year.

“The kitchen is all yours.”  Having made her feelings known, Augusta headed for the door. “Do try not to blow the whole room to pieces, Neville. Those pans are self-scrubbing, you know.”

You heard the distinct snick of a lock after she pulled the door shut behind her. Apparently Neville’s family didn’t think him above transforming said pans into skrewts if they left him to it. Maybe you ought to start out small…

“Here.” Neville jumped at you handing over two ashy twigs plucked from the remains of the floo fire. His eyes slid up to your face, then back down as he took your offering. “Sticks into worms shouldn’t be too hard,” you said, slinging your bag onto the waiting table. “Let’s get started.”


It was too hard. Merlin’s beard, turning sticks into worms was too hard. You never thought you’d meet a non-Squib that took three hours to turn a couple of slightly-burnt twigs into earthworms. In the end, Neville’s sticks had still been a little too stiff for proper worms, but you’d released them out into the small garden outside the kitchen window before you’d left anyway. Their lives there couldn’t be any worse than yours back home. Then you’d disappeared back up the chimney, leaving the scattered pans and remaining worm bits for Neville to clean up himself.

Between that lesson and the next, your house became even more unbearable. The cigar smoke billowing from underneath the kitchen door wafted through the rest of the house night in and night out, which meant even your binge eating sessions were out. If you wanted food, you had to endure not only your father’s company, but that of Rita Skeeter’s shrill voice, taking up the recent cry of the Ministry: There is no war in Wizard Britain.

“[Name]! [Name]!” she called as you pushed through her and your father’s piles upon piles of papers and for the fireplace in the living room where they’d taken up residence while the House Elves cleaned up breakfast. “You knew the Diggory boy, didn’t you? Tell us, how do you feel about Potter getting away with murder?”

You leveled a glare at her that could have curdled Draught of Living Death. “Longbottom Manor!” you shouted as you tossed a handful of green powder into the flames. The last thing you saw? Skeeter’s ugly fake grin as you spun away. The nerve! Cedric had not died to become a martyr. He had not died to become the poster boy for whatever new story the Prophet wanted spewed now. Cedric Diggory trusted Harry Potter. And after she’d done everything she could to take the spotlight off Cedric it and thrust it squarely on Potter! If she and your father thought for one second that you were going to jump onboard their bandwagon—

“[Name]? Are you alright?”

Your eyes popped open. Too late, you realized you were back in Neville’s home. The fire around you had died entirely, and you stood white-faced in the remaining ashes. Neville sat at the table, wand out, a row of squirming twigs and a shoebox full of potting soil in front of him. He looked genuinely concerned for you. Oh no. You looked away.

“What are you doing?”

“Practicing,” Neville answered. When you finally peeked back over at him, he was beaming. He looked a lot less sweaty, too. “I think I’ve nearly got the worm stuff down!”

As long as he was willing to pretend he hadn’t seen you with your walls down, then you were going to pretend right along with him. You weren’t used to things like concern being thrown your way. “Let me see.”

Neville scooted back slightly so you could look at his work. Sure, the twigs were moving. The handful in Neville’s box of dirt were even a little pinker than those he had transformed last time you’d come by. But every single worm still retained its stick-like structure. They were wobbling lines, with extra heads or tails or limbs. Sighing, you walked back around the table to put your things down. How could you move on from this step if Neville couldn’t even make worms properly?

“That bad?” he asked, face slightly crumpled.

“Could be better.”

Neville sighed and pursed his lips together to prevent letting his face fall further into a frown. While you ignored him and tried to think of better ways to get the point across, you saw (out of the corner of your eye) Neville pick up his wand again and begin to wave it over his remaining pseudo-worms. His expression remained fixed as one of intense concentration, but it did not entirely escape you when Neville’s eyes darted toward you before he said the spell. A spell that did absolutely nothing, you noted as the slightly wriggling pieces of wood did nothing more than…well, wriggle.

“S-Sorry,” Neville said at the look on your face. You shook your head.

“The wand work’s all wrong. This isn’t Charms, you know.”

“Will you show me again? Just one more time. Promise.”

You were there to tutor, so getting up and walking back around the table for another display shouldn’t have been as annoying as it was. Apparently your lack of sleep was starting to get to you. As you stepped into place, you reached over to take Neville’s arm—but he took a quick step to the side, turning scarlet in the process.

“No, I mean…do it for me once?” he asked. “I want to watch.”

One side of your mouth puckered up, but how could you refuse? If you weren’t here teaching Neville, you would be back at home being hounded by Rita. There really wasn’t anywhere safe to go these days, if one wanted to avoid thinking of the future on top of their less than spectacular relatives. Your hand dug your wand out of your pocket and maneuvered it in the air above the worms. They instantly pinkened, and the wriggling turned into purposeful squirming. Before they could get far enough to disappear and dry out somewhere in Neville’s kitchen, you plucked them up and tossed them into the dirt. Only then did you realize someone was applauding. Neville stopped when you looked over at him.

“You did that without the incantation and everything,” he said, gaze moving away from your scrutinizing.  After a moment of watching him look everywhere but at you, you let out a snort.

“You’ll learn that eventually, too. Next year, probably, or the next.” ‘If you ever managed to pass your O.W.L.s,’ you added silently in your head. Neville grinned. His teeth showed, but you noticed the expression didn’t really meet his eyes.

“Sure, I suppose.” Like a deflated balloon, he bobbed back over to the bench. There was one remaining stick, a long one more suited to snakes than to earthworms, and it was over this that Neville clumsily stuck his arms out again. “Vertistis vermibus!

The stick shook, rolled over, and lay still. Neville’s face fell once more. “Like I said, it’s not a Charm,” you said. “You’ve got to be more purposeful. Move your wand like you mean it.”

Neville continued to stare at his stick for another minute and a half, then let out a long breath and sat down. “I’ll get it eventually,” he said, and though it came out as a whisper, you were surprised at the amount of confidence in his tone. Before you could pay much attention to this, however, Neville returned his attention to you. “Why is Transfiguration your only good subject?”

You paused, then: “None of your business.”

“I didn’t mean—”

“You’ve got the worms down, sort of,” you said over Neville’s apology. “We’re moving up a level. Matches into needles. Let’s go.”


“Augusta, please, be reasonable,” a distorted voice drifted in your ear as you made your way back to Neville’s several weeks later. “Dumbledore needs everyone he can get. We have to act quickly.”

You be reasonable, Arthur,” returned Neville’s grandmother’s voice. “Go as fast as you want, by all means. I won’t stop you.”

“You were imperative in the last Order,” said a woman.

As you spun into sight, you caught a glimpse of the kitchen table, this time occupied by three adults: Augusta and two middle-aged redheads. None of them took note of your arrival. “And I lost my son and daughter-in-law to it, I’ll have you remember. No. Can’t do it. Oh, sure, I could do it, but I can’t risk Neville, you know. Absolutely hopeless when it comes to a fight. He’s had a tutor over once a week all holiday and all my teacups are still squeaking.”

You felt a flutter of fear at the realization of what they were discussing. The Order of the Phoenix lived on in your father’s articles from years long passed. First villains, then heroes, now villains again. If they were really on the move, did that mean that what Potter said was true? That You-Know-Who was back and Cedric had been murdered at his hands? You knew your father printed malarkey, anything to keep his job and keep people happy, but at least it was malarkey that didn’t make you feel quite so endangered when he was going along with Rita's Potter is a madman spiel.

“Oh, [Name].” All three heads swiveled in your direction as Augusta greeted you. “Neville’s waiting for you in the sitting room. You can have your lessons in there today.”

“Thanks,” you said weakly, and practically sprinted for the door.

“Is that the tutor?” asked the man as you made to close the door behind her. “If she’s any good, perhaps when she comes of age…”

“No,” said Augusta. “She’s a [L Name], and you know how that man thinks. Half the dragon dung being put out by the Prophet has his name on it, if it doesn’t have Rita Skeeter’s.”

Could your father actually be right? Not in what he was writing, obviously; he would always write what suited him best, what people wanted to read not what they needed—but in what he’d burst into your room over a week ago over? That you shouldn't be associating with known old Order members when there was the possibility that You-Know-Who was really back? The halls around you spun along with your stomach. When you stumbled into the living room, it was quite by accident. Lucky for you that Neville was already there.

“[Name]?” he asked, much more alarmed this time than the last. You supposed this time it was because your legs were shaking so hard that you nearly fell over. Before you could, Neville had rushed over to support you, and the next thing you knew, he was half-carrying you over to the sofa. You didn’t understand what was happening. The wild, panicked breathing issuing from your own mouth sounded like it belonged to someone else. You couldn’t get it to stop. And on top of that, Neville—pudgy, sweaty Neville Longbottom—was carrying you.

Only he wasn’t really pudgy, you realized as he sat next to you, gingerly patting you on the back. Maybe he had been, back on the train when you’d met him, but what had started out as puppy fat had melted away during these past few weeks to be replaced by what was obviously muscle. He was still sweaty, though. Very sweaty, in fact. Sweaty enough that even in the buzzing panic of your mind, you thought to scoot a few inches away. Neville’s hand dropped.

“Sorry,” he said. “Are you…are you alright?”

What did he think? He-Who-Must-Not-Be-Named might be back, if Potter wasn’t a loon! Add to that your father that had been writing anti-You-Know-Who articles since the Dark Lord’s fall, and even pumping out pro-You-Know-Who statements again wasn’t going to save your family. They'd killed your mother before. What made you think you would get off now? Neither your nor your father were brave or good enough at magic to be Death Eaters. Your father had basically signed his own death warrant, and probably yours, too.

When you didn’t answer outside of forcing yourself to breathe normally, Neville got up again. You watched him walk back over to the window where he picked up a perfectly mundane towel and lifted it to his forehead to pat away some of the sweat.

“What are you doing?” you asked.

If Neville were a normal person, he’d have snapped at you the same way you had snapped at him the week before. Instead, he just blinked and came back over to sit down, this time on the chair. Maybe he was finally afraid of touching you. He looked nervous enough, wringing his hand on his towel like that. “You’ll probably laugh at me.”

“I don’t laugh.”

Neville laughed at this, though he immediately sobered up. “I, um. Right. I was just…exercising.”

“Exercising,” you repeated. “Like a muggle?”

“Wizards need to exercise, too. I—I could stand to lose some weight,” as Neville went on, he looked more determined, “and besides, I can’t keep up or help Gran or anyone else if I just sit there. I have to learn. I have to learn everything I can. That’s why,” he gulped, “that’s why asked McGonagall if she would find ask you to tutor me this summer.”

You asked McGonagall?”

Neville had gone sort of chalky, but he nodded all the same. “I-I thought at first it would just be nice because—because Dad was always good at Transfiguration, and I know Gran wants me to do well, and I saw you helping McGonagall during class and you're always really good. But now You-Know-Who’s back and I want to help. Gran says I’m useless and should just stay put, but you can bet Harry won’t, or Hermione, or Ron. I have to help. I have to.”

His color returned, Neville stared past you toward the window. The sun still shone spectacularly through the glass, so beautiful that it was hard to believe that an old Dark Lord was stirring up old wars in your lifetime. “How do you know he’s back?” you demanded. Again, Neville looked up to blink at you.

“Dumbledore always said he’d come back someday,” he said, as though this settled the matter. You scowled.

“Dumbledore also said we ought to have a werewolf for a teacher.”

“Professor Lupin was the best Defense Against the Dark Arts teacher we ever had!” Neville protested, and you couldn’t exactly argue with that. You knew nothing of Lupin’s teaching abilities, since you hadn’t done well enough in that class to take the N.E.W.T. level course. But still. He was what he was. “Do you really think he’d lie about something like that? Dumbledore wouldn’t, and neither would Harry. If that’s who they say killed Diggory—”

Your heart twisted in your chest. Though you didn’t hear it yourself, you must have also made some sort of pained noise to go along with it, because Neville stopped dead. He frowned, looking ashamed of himself. “Sorry,” he said for the hundredth time. “You knew him, didn’t you?”

You felt like he had conjured a rock into your throat. Your breathing was fine, but you couldn’t get words to come out. In the end, all you could do was nod, and then Neville was back in his place right next to you.

“I didn’t mean it to sound like that. Diggory…Diggory was a good man.”

You nodded again.

“Were you close to him?”

Lifting your shaking hands to wipe away the few tears that had sprung into your eyes, you finally came back to yourself. “He was always decent to me,” you whispered. “The first friend I ever had at Hogwarts. I mean, after everything my dad wrote during the—the first war," jeez, it hurt to say that, "and then after. No one wanted anything to do with me. Cedric was—was my best mate, but he was so popular…”

You saw it as clearly as if it had been yesterday: You, a tiny eleven-year-old spending her first week at what was supposed to be the greatest seven years of her life alone, poking at porridge and struggling through potions homework. You remembered the upturned noses of older students and the whispers of coward and pureblood supremacist that followed you wherever you went. And you remembered a small, happy boy plunking himself down next to you at dinner one night saying, “Hello, I’m Cedric. Got lost on the stairs coming down. You done that yet?” and you being almost too stunned to answer.

“Were you in love with him?” Neville asked in the present day.

“No! God, no.” No, though Cedric was certainly handsome and kind and your very best friend, you had never felt anything like love for him, try as you might have. And you probably shouldn’t have tried. This entire year had been a mess. Popular before, becoming the first Hogwarts Champion had caused Cedric’s amount of fans to shoot through the roof. Combine that with his infatuation with Chang, how busy he was working out Triwizard clues, and your personal issues and—well, the last thing you’d ever done to Cedric was yell at him. You’d been jealous and lonely, and he'd b een doing his best, and now he was dead.

You were crying, you realized, and again it was too late to stop Neville’s noticing. How long you went at it for the first time since leaving Hogwarts, you didn’t know. The tears wouldn’t stop. Crying in front of Neville only made you cry harder, somehow, perhaps because you couldn’t believe you’d given into your feelings here of all places, in a strange house with a strange boy when a strange wizard could murder you at any moment.

Neville grabbed your hand. “[Name],” he tried, “it’ll be okay.”

“It won’t!” Well, that about proved you had entirely lost your head. Why not go on for a little while? “He’s gone, and I won’t have anyone to talk to at all. Dad’s only making things worse working with Rita all the time, and I-I-I can’t fight You-Know-Who. I’m not b-brave enough. Not like—like you!”

"But I’m not brave.”

These words caught you off guard. Thankfully, this also worked to clear your eyes. A few hiccups burst out of your chest, but you could see again. Your hand remained latched around Neville’s like it was an anchor. Embarrassing as this was, you still didn’t let go when you needed to wipe your nose. You just did it with your other hand. “What do you mean, you’re not brave?" you said at last. "You’re in Gryffindor.”

“I didn’t want to be,” he said quietly. “I asked the hat to put me somewhere else, but I guess it beat me down. Probably shouldn’t’ve listened to it, huh?”

“No.” The word came out so quickly that it surprised even you. You didn’t know why, but all of a sudden, you just couldn’t stop talking. Apparently something was going to spill out of your body, and if it couldn’t be tears, it might as well be babbling. “No because—because when I first came, I thought I ought to be in Slytherin because—because I’m not brave and I’m not smart and look where I come from, look who my dad is. I’m not loyal. Only thing I am is pureblood, and anyone can do that. But the hat said, no, I would be perfect for Hufflepuff. Only…only…”

“Only what?” Neville asked.

“Only I’m not loyal. I didn’t say goodbye to my only friend. And I’m not hardworking. The only thing I work hard at is Transfiguration, because then I can be animagus and then maybe…maybe I can be something more pleasant.”

Silence met this confession. You’d answered Neville’s question at last with the pathetic answer you had. He said nothing, not for several minutes, and when he did speak, he just asked one question: “Why didn’t you tell me before?”

Well, there was a good question. You shifted uncomfortably in your seat. “I’m not used to people listening to me.”

Neville nodded, and squeezed your fingers. “Maybe there’s more than one way to be hardworking and more than one way to be brave?”

You cocked a single eyebrow. How about that? Talking to Neville—Neville of all people!—had you feeling more like your old self. Your heart still felt ragged and dull, but you felt at the same time that you could go on as normal for a little bit. “How so?”

He blushed. “Well, you could keep teaching me Transfiguration…”


“And I could talk to you next year. I—I like you, [Name], and I wouldn’t mind talking to you more when the school year starts. It’s not going to get any easier. Things are just going to get worse. So—so maybe you can work hard and teach me Transfiguration and I can be brave and fight V-Voldemort like my dad. And then you'll be brave, too, because you're helping me.”

You winced at the name. Unfortunately, you had a bad feeling you’d be hearing a lot more of it in the coming months—months that certainly would feel a little brighter if you had a friendly face to look forward to seeing, even if that friendly face was the worst transfigurer you’d ever met. “You really think me tutoring you is going to help you fight You-Know-Who?”

“Anything well help,” Neville said. “Right?”

This right was directed not just at whether or not you could help Neville, but if Neville could help you. You were a mismatched pair at the best. But when you thought of coming here for the next few weeks and watching Neville get better, when you thought of him desperately working on worms while you were away and doing chin-ups while his grandmother debated with Order members in the kitchen, when you thought of him staring at you on the train and checking up on you when you arrived at his house shaking, it dawned upon you that yes, anything would help. Your summer looked just a little more summery. They might be the last few weeks you enjoyed for the rest of your short life, but hey: what the hell?

“Besides,” Neville went on, looking sheepish and holding up a teacup that still had a fleshy pink tail for a handle, “I don’t think I’m going to get better at this in another month.”

You surprised yourself again by laughing. This time, you surprised Neville, too. Surprising him even further, you squeezed his hand back and pecked him on the cheek. “Let’s get started, then, Mr. Brave,” you said as you pulled him off the couch. There was a lot of work to do, but as you took his wrist to guide him through the motions of the spell, Neville didn’t look like he felt any trepidation whatsoever. In fact, for once, he looked rather pleased. You couldn't quite fell that just yet,  but you could feel it coming. There was plenty of summer (and tutoring) left to enjoy.

Neville LongbottomxReader: No Rest for the Weary
Written for Lunaescence Archives' August 2015 Fic Trade.

Recipient: Shade
Prompt: "You want me to tutor him this summer?!"

Ugh, I just can't even with this right now. I loved my opener and then the farther along I got, the worse this whole story got. And to make things worse, I was supposed to write 1000-5000 words and wound up a little over 6000. I just--great job, me. I've written worse than this, but I've written better, too. Especially for Harry Potter.

It's done now, at least. Moving on to Adventures chapter 8. Might could get that out tonight.

The lamp in Savanah’s room was still when you crept down the hall that evening to check on her. Your serious, seven-year-old daughter rarely stayed up past her bedtime of 8:00. Most seven-year-olds would put up a fuss, but not her. Savanah understood the consequences of what happened when she stayed up too late—something drilled into her by her father from probably before her memory even began. If the lights were on still at 8:30, it usually meant that something was wrong.

You knocked quietly, just in case. Yes, the door was slightly ajar and there really wasn’t much a girl her age could want to hide at such an hour, but such carefulness was a long-learned behavior in your tiny family. When you pushed the door open, there sat your daughter in her bed, peeking up at you through her dark, curly hair. “Hey, Mom,” she said softly.

“Hey, honey. What are you doing still up?”

“Am I in trouble?”

Savanah was always worried about whether or not she was in trouble. Her father was strict with her, out of habit. You understood what he wanted, but when he was gone, you couldn’t help but let her leash out just a little—even though she expected you to tighten it at every turn. “No, you’re not in trouble,” you answered as you stepped inside the room. “Are you feeling all right?”

She nodded mutely, then returned her attention to something clutched in her tiny hands. You leaned against the door frame and watched. Savanah looked remarkably like her father—even now, [skin tone] and small. Even now, the brightness and bubbliness that so defined her from him shone through. And yet, the pout on her face grew ever more pronounced as she flipped that something over repeatedly with her fingers.

“Do you think,” Savanah began hesitantly. “Do you think that Dad will ever come home?”

Dad, not Daddy. Will he come home, not when will he come home. All asked so sedately. Your little girl was hardly seven on the inside—so you thought, until she looked up at you again and you could take in the obvious worry in her wide brown eyes. It was a worry you shared, and a worry you wished she didn’t have to feel at all. Her emotions could be freer when her father was away, but what was the point when all she felt was bad?

Wordlessly, you went to settle on the bed next to her, and just as wordlessly pressed her hair from her forehead and leaned down to kiss the smooth skin there. “You get something in the mail from Daddy today?”

Savanah held up a postcard. Normally she showed you right away when one of Bruce’s mysterious postcards turned up—they were addressed to you as well, most of the time—but today she had brought the mail in and remained unusually melancholy for the rest of the evening. You took it from her now to find a card embossed on the front with a glossy image of the Taj Mahal. The back of the postcard was almost entirely blank. The only thing written there was your address on one side and three hastily scrawled letters on the other: Be home soon.

“Looks like Daddy’s in India again,” you said, smiling as you handed back over her mail. Savanah took it, still looking morose.

“But when will he be home?”

You looked at her. When would Bruce be home? He always said soon, but you never knew. You never had. At first, Bruce had stuck around as often as he could. His work with the Avengers gradually stopped. He was home, and without having to worry about becoming the Hulk at the drop of a hat. Then Tony and Steve dragged him back, and before you knew it, he was either gone with them, or gone because he’d destroyed one building too many and someone was out for his blood. Not that you didn’t still love him; you’d never stop loving Bruce. But it was no way to keep up a family. If you had known seven-and-a-half years ago what things would be like…

Not that Savanah was a mistake, no. You loved her. It was because of that love that you felt so terrible. Of course a little girl with her condition would find life difficult. Of course her father who had passed that condition on would find life difficult. And of course her mother who never had experienced that condition would find life difficult. But you were being selfish. Right now, all your daughter wanted to know was that her father would be okay.

“He’ll be home as soon as he can,” you said, standing to peck her on the forehead a second time. “I promise.”

She stared at her newest postcard for a moment longer, then gave you a solemn nod. “Dad promised, too. Know what else he promised me?”

“What’s that?”

“That he’ll take me with him someday. When someone finds out.”

You froze. Bruce. His being afraid was perfectly understandable. His being afraid for his only daughter was perfectly understandable. But it was quite another thing to make his own daughter afraid, too, and his wife. You could not be brave enough for three people. The smile on your face turned brittle as ice.

“They won’t find out, sweetheart,” you said, with your hand stuck  in place on the lamp switch. How could they? Even with Bruce absent, you took pains to ensure that your daughter could not be discovered to have the same sort of condition as her father. She went to a school with other children that were “special” like she was, rarely left the house except to go to said school, and kept to herself in public. Savanah had never had an accident, not since she was too young to control herself. While your thoughts raced through better means to protect her, Savanah looked up at you, and you realized with a jolt that she was not afraid. Not at all.

“They will,” she said seriously. “But it’s okay. You’ll still love me. And so will Dad. Right?”

Now Savanah seemed uncertain. Your heart thudded painfully in your chest. You were the mom; you had to answer this the right way. “Of course I’ll still love you.”

“Good.” Savanah sat up just long enough to place her postcard on her bedside table, propped up against the lamp so as to keep Bruce's handwriting facing her. She gazed at it as she settled back into her sheets. Then she looked back up at you. “I’ll send you lots of postcards when I go with him, Mommy. Promise.”

“Thank you.” It was a miracle this word came out so steady. One more kiss before you turned out the light, then you slipped back out into the hallway. The steady glow of Savanah's nightlight through the crack in the door led you back to your empty bedroom with its empty bed. Only when you’d fallen onto it, face first into a pillow, did you allow the tears to spill out. First Bruce, now Savanah. If you lost both of them…

‘Damn you, Bruce.’

Or damn your past self. Bruce had warned you. You couldn’t say he hadn’t. But you had thought then that you could handle it, that you could marry him, that you could give him the family he’d always wanted, that you could love him no matter what. Now, years later, you wondered if you were really strong enough to bear that weight.

Bruce BannerxReader: Postcards
Part 37 of 120 of my One Small Step collection.

All prompts come from the "120 Bits of Random" challenge by SugarLandBabyGirl on Lunaescence Archives.

This is crap. Like, this is up there with "Barracuda" with how much I hate this. But it's the best of the four ideas I had, and I am frankly just so sick of this prompt that I need it to be done. I can't even remember how long I've been working on this one. Several months, I am pretty sure. Onto the next one. More Starlord. THANK. GOODNESS. And good riddance to stupid "Postcards."

Bag End always looked like home: wide, comfortable chairs, sunlight streaming through the enormous windows, the smell of cooking food, and—most importantly—the vast shelves stuffed with books every color of the rainbow. Now empty of those comfortable sights, sounds, and smells, it still felt like home to you—only warped and wrong and empty. Its master was not yet gone, but you felt his absence already, though Frodo remained beside you, still brushing against you on the remaining sofa. Then again, its master had been gone in spirit for some time now. He had only recently chosen to physically depart.

“[Name],” he said softly as you continued to sit in silence. You knew what he meant: Time to leave. What little remained of Frodo’s possessions were left for Sam, the rest already sold or donated elsewhere. Several of your most beloved of Bilbo’s books sat on the sitting room table of your own hobbit hole. The ponies were packed and waiting outside the gate. Pippin, Merry, and Sam were probably loitering there, too, but you knew they wouldn’t begrudge the extra time you were taking any more than you did. The longer you stayed, the longer Frodo stayed.

The thought cracked a sob from your throat. After reading what you had just read, could you really force Frodo to remain any longer than he had? Responding to this errant thought, your fingers tightened around the spine of Frodo’s book: the book that held the story that was the cause of it all, the book that had made you finally aware of all that had gone on when Frodo disappeared so long ago.

“[Name],” he murmured again, voice whisper-soft, but it was not this that brought you back to the present in the warm sitting room. No, it was his hand brushing softly at the nape of your neck. Your eyes slid shut and when they opened, there you were: no longer on some distant battlefield or a barren mountaintop. This was the Shire, the Shire were you had been so safe while your friends had been in danger.

“Was the book that terrible?” Frodo asked when he saw that you had at last come back to him in a way that he had never come back to you.

“It’s the most beautiful story I’ve ever read!” you burst out. “And it’s true. That makes it better. All the best stories are true, or at least partially.”

Frodo smiled a tiny smile as he worked his hand into yours. Now you knew. You knew where he’d been and what had happened to that missing finger—the real story, the whole story. Saruman had claimed plenty during his rule of the Shire, but most of its inhabitants still refused to believe that a Baggins had saved them. Less stubbornly than they had with Bilbo, of course, but Frodo had returned less flamboyant and rich than his uncle. There were whispers still, but no longer of treasures hidden in tunnels, and more that the Bagginses were doomed. After all, what was Mr. Frodo doing with poor Miss [Name], still unmarried after all these years? The least he could do was settle down with her now his adventuring was done. If he were any proper gentlehobbit, then that was what he would do.

You had not loved Frodo for his manners, though, not any more than you had adored his uncle for his riches. They were interesting, Bilbo and Frodo, interesting and kind. That had been more than enough for you growing up. Had Bilbo not taken to inviting you in for tea when he spotted you loitering outside all those years ago, you might never have loitered long enough to meet Frodo, and had you not met Frodo, how sad your tween years and up might have been. How many stories you might have missed out on! Though you had missed the newest adventure still.

The tears began to leak out despite your greatest efforts to keep them inside you where they belonged. There would be enough time to cry when you returned to the Shire without Frodo. Distant though he might have been as of late, you knew Frodo did not desire to hurt you. His leaving was not borne out of cruelty, but of necessity. That you now understood, and yet here he was: leaving without you once more, leaving you alone while he went on to discover things you could only dream about. Suddenly, the soft hand in yours was no longer enough.

“I wish I could have—could have gone with you,” you said between the sobs. Frodo might have looked just as alarmed as you had expected, but it was difficult to see through the water in your eyes. All you knew was that he stiffened for an instant, then shifted so that he was holding both your hands in his. This renewed show of affection only made you cry harder. How you had missed this since he came home. Understanding the reason behind Frodo’s change did not make it hurt any less in retrospect.

Perhaps Frodo knew this, because he offered no apologies. All he did was hold your hands until you stopped blubbering, squeezing them softly every now and then, or offering a gentle murmur of, “it will be all right.” It wouldn’t be, but it had to be, and soon enough you were choking back the loudest of your hiccups to blink at him again.

“I am glad that you didn’t come, [Name],” Frodo said once you were quiet enough. You stiffened, and in answer he pulled you closer before you could protest.

“I could have helped,” you said into his chest. “I could have. You can’t say that I would have been less help than Pippin at the very least, although I’m sure he was very brave!” Frodo knew, had known even back then, of your very un-hobbitish desire for adventure. Deep down, you knew he had also known that your adventures had never carried you out of the safety of the Shire. Elves sounded nice when you were wrapped up in bed at night, but they met with other dangers when the sun rose and you had never gone after them yourself. Besides, what sort of gentlehobbit dragged his beloved to Mordor, even if she begged to come along?

To your surprise, you heard (and felt) Frodo laugh. He pushed you slightly off his chest, and you could see something of the old gleam in his eye as he kissed each of your cheeks. “No, no. Of course I didn’t think you couldn’t help. It was all so sudden, and I just—it was long, [Name]. So long and so difficult. Knowing I could perhaps spare you that trial, keep you happy in the Shire, was what kept me going a lot of the time.”

He fell silent, and stretched between the two of you, you felt that time when he’d been gone. You felt Saruman’s occupation of the Shire. Frodo was thinking of the same trails, though he had not been there to go through them without you. There had been danger enough at home in the end, without dragging you to some dark land full of orcs and sorcerers more malevolent than Gandalf and his fireworks. Here was proof, then, that it had not only been his possession of the Ring that had caused Frodo such grief, but also what you had suffered in his absence—and you could not allow Frodo to suffer that grief any longer.

“You did. You did keep me safe, Frodo. Saruman wasn’t your fault. If you and Sam hadn’t made it—things would have been worse. So much worse. Oh, Frodo.” Again, tears began to course down your cheeks, smaller this time, but steady. “I’ll miss you terribly.”

Frodo lifted a hand to brush some of the wetness from your cheeks. “I shall miss you, too, [Name]. But it is better this way. I have not…been myself enough for you, I fear.”

You drew in a shaky breath, unable to entirely dissuade Frodo of this assumption. Try as you might, you just had not been able to withdraw Frodo from his Wraith-like shell. Even Sam had told you it wasn’t your fault, but you had worn yourself down trying these past few years. Seeing Frodo off like this and knowing you would never see him again felt much like failure on your part as well.

For a few minutes, you allowed yourself to rest your head on Frodo’s shoulder. He ran his fingers through your hair, as he had during winters long before the discovery of what his uncle’s magic ring truly was and never since he had destroyed the thing. And yet, Frodo was leaving. This was still the last time you would ever feel this safe and warm and comfortable again—though you had never earned this safety, warmth, or comfort in the way he had.

“If I could have carried it, only for a little bit. You said Sam would come, too, one day. If I had been there—”


The comfort came to a grinding halt as Frodo gazed down at you in horror. Your brow creased. Frodo had never been the most outspoken of hobbits—likely that honor would go always to his uncle Bilbo. He had smiled, though, once upon many a year. He smiled and laughed just as any Hobbit might until a quiet settled on him. You had thought his return would return also the light in Frodo’s heart, but it had not. Instead, here at the end of all, he snapped at you. Against your wishes, you could feel yourself wanting to cry again. Frodo swallowed, and buried his face into your hair.

“I am sorry, [Name], but on this I must be firm. No, though I will miss you until the end of my days, the pain will be lessened some knowing you did not share my burden. If I could have spared Sam, I would have, but I was too far gone. Losing you to the Ring would have been worse, somehow. I go to the Grey Lands happy that I rescued you from that danger at least. You are whole. I don’t regret that. Not at all.”

You pursed your lips together and nodded until you felt Frodo release you back into the sunbeam planted firmly on the couch. Blinking rapidly did nothing to clear your vision. However, through the mist, you could still see Frodo try again to smile.

“Please don’t cry,” he said. “If there is one thing you can do for me now, [Name], is live, though I know have done nothing to deserve asking you for such a thing.”

Frodo loved you. This you knew. You hadn’t for a long while, but reading his book had made you certain of this once more. And really, the Ring had placed this difficulty on him. You could not let him leave still feeling that he had betrayed you in some way. He had gone so far and done so much to protect you. You owed him a smile at the very least, and so smile you did.

“Pippin already made me promise to go to the Green Dragon with him when we get back,” you informed him. No, Frodo had not yet left and already his friends were coming together to help you. He was not leaving you quite so alone as you had at first thought. You would see him off and come back yourself. Back, without Frodo. Back, without the love of your life. There was no There and Back Again this time. You would go; you would come back—but a part of you would remain with Frodo and travel with him to the Grey Lands you could never see. It was time to let that happen.

“Good.” Frodo stood as though he sensed your determination to get the worst of it over with. “I’m glad to leave you with such wonderful companions.”

"They won’t be you,” you said as you followed suit. Your eyes met his and you smiled again. No more arguing. No more crying. Frodo would see before he left you that he did so in the best of conditions. With this unspoken agreement to argue no longer between you, you both tied your cloaks around your necks and exited Bag End for the last time. Just as you had expected, three hobbits and five ponies stood waiting outside the garden gate. Sam nodded at you as you came to take your pony off his hands.

“Mr. Frodo,” he said with a bow. “Miss [Name].”

“Ready, Sam,” Frodo said.

Sam turned his eyes to you. You swallowed. There had never been much love lost between yourself and Frodo’s faithful gardener, and yet since their return, you had found such an unexpected, silent ally in him. He was waiting for your go ahead, making sure that you would be alright. You nodded. “Ready, Sam,” you repeated. He didn’t look happy, but he did give you a short bow in response. In less time than you would have thought possible, the five of you were ready to go. At last, the five of you left the Shire together for what would be the first and final ride. 

Frodo BagginsxReader: History
Part 23 of 160 of my The Space Between Stars request booklet for Quotev.

All prompts come from the "160 Collective Drabbles" challenge by Elsaa on Lunaescence Archives.

Well, here's Frodo. I think it's a little better than my foray into Legolas, but I'm not sure if I'll ever manage to write anything as good as the Boromir one shot for this series.

The request for this was actually that Frodo find the reader having been attacked by Shelob on the way to destroy the Ring. Many, many moons ago I discovered that writing the exact same story as the canon but with another character is boring to read and write. Not to mention I'm sort of a stickler for the whole "9" motif. But I wasn't when I was 12 and had the world's worst half-elf, half-hobbit OC, so I do apologize for being unable to fulfill that part of the request. I hope this is enjoyable to read anyway.

Frodo was requested by inkknight13 on Quotev. Next up is Peter Parker!
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A: Then you will need to go find another story to read, or write it yourself. With the exception of stories where people vote for the end pairing (something I have only ever done with But Uh-Oh Those Summer Nights), I never start something without knowing exactly where the relationship is headed. I have at least some idea of what I'm doing with every chapter, so I cannot change what I'm doing five chapters in.

Q17: I do not like the way you portray me/the reader in this story.
A: Sorry, but I do not ascribe to the idea that reader inserts are to have no real established personality outside of the generic "lol I am a so randumb Hetalia-loving high school student." Generally speaking, I write the characters as adults, and since I plot my story, I need to know who the character is as a person. I fully understand that you, as a real person, might not be a doormat, a recovering addict, a professor at a school in New England, or a bitter ex-athlete who suddenly lost their arms. But that's the character I need to tell the story. My writing is more geared toward "virtual reality": letting you step into the shoes of someone different. If this is not how you like your reader inserts, that's perfectly fine. But you will need to find somewhere else to get it.

Q18: Read this story!
I don't read other fan fictions, unless it is specifically for a fandom I know of, but don't have much interest in, and is really, really short. As I said above, my standards are high, so when I read stuff about, say, Tony Stark beating his Avatar daughter into unconsciousness, it upsets me. I am aware, however, this isn't a cool attitude to have, as when I was 13, I also wrote a lot of garbage (and still frequently do). So I stay away, and let everyone have their fun. If you are posting this on one of my stories, though: Get off, and quit wasting my time. That's uncool, too.

Do you have further questions, or wish for clarification, or still just want to talk to me? Feel free to leave a comment or contact me on Tumblr.

This question and answer series is subject to revision and updating whenever the author wishes.


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Hello there. Nice to meet you. Please make yourself at home.

I'm Straw. I've been writing fan fiction for nearly eleven years now, which makes me twenty-four. I have a bachelor's degree in English and Creative Writing, and a master's degree in English--not that you can tell, due to my ludicrous inability to find typos. I'm better at improving the works of others than I am at writing my own, but I absolutely adore writing and am constantly reading books and attending conventions to improve my craft. I have a full time, Monday through Friday job in a call center at a local doctors' office; I also frequently fall ill, the combination of which results in my spending more time daydreaming about updating than actually doing it.

I'm vegetarian, Christian, feminist, and presently identify as aromantic and asexual. I keep goldfish (Ken, Chikusa, Loki, and Clint) and a pleco (Groot), all of which occupy much of my time due to their collective attempts to die every few months. I also have a cat named Seymour, who thankfully does not frequently attempt to die, but does get urinary tract infections often.

I tend to find one fandom to hunker down in it for several years, writing and learning about it in my spare time until the story gets to the point of disappointing me. Presently my main fandom is the Marvel Cinematic Universe. My sub-fandoms are The Last of Us, Star Trek (Original Series and Reboot movies), and the Daniel Craig James Bond movies.

I'm terribly shy, which is why you don't see me interacting with any of the writing communities I'm on much. Please do not let that keep you from contacting me. You can e-mail me with the link above, or message me via Tumblr at my blog,

Presently Attempting To:
- Write more scenes instead of sequels
- Incorporate sex scenes
- Write middles that are cohesive and entertaining
- Make the characters less melodramatic unless the character is, in fact, melodramatic
- Actually write something

I also post my fan fictions to Quotev (as Straw/Strawchan), Ghosts of the Vanguard (as Straw), and Lunaescence Archives (as Straw). If you ever see my stuff on any other website, that's not me. Please report them for stealing, and let me know so that I may as well.

Current Projects:

(Don't) Hold Your Breath
Fandom: The Last of Us
Pairings: Joel/Reader; Maria/Tommy
Main Song: We Fall Apart by We As Human
Challenge: #32 in His Rulebook

Adventures in a Realm Without Divorce Court
Fandom: Thor; Avengers
Pairings: Thor/Jane; Thor/Reader; Clint/Darcy
Main Song: Waking Up in Vegas by Katy Perry
Challenge: A Twist on "I Do"

Fandom: Iron Man 2
Pairings: Justin Hammer/Reader; Tony Stark/Reader; Happy/Pepper
Main Song: Head on Collision by Hawk Nelson
Challenge: N/A

Just a Myth
Fandom: Avengers; Captain America: The Winter Soldier
Pairings: Natasha Romanoff/Reader; implied Clint Barton/Bobbi Morse
Main Song: I Am Not a Robot by Marina and the Diamonds
Challenge: A Perfect Love...

Logical Fallacy
Fandom: James Bond; Skyfall
Pairings: Q/Reader; Bond/Moneypenny
Main Song: A Thousand Years by Christina Perri
Challenge: 102 Things a Guy Should Know About Girls

Natasha Romanoff's Matchmaking Service
Fandom: Captain America: The Winter Soldier
Pairings: Steve Rogers/Reader; past Brock Rumlow/Reader
Main Song: N/A
Fic Trade Prompt: Late-night Bonfire

One Small Step
Fandom: Marvel Cinematic Universe
Pairings: Various/Reader
Main Song: N/A
Challenge: 120 Bits of Random

The Space Between Stars
Fandom: Request
Pairings: Request
Main Song: N/A
Challenge: 160 Collective Drabbles

Tastes a Little like Freedom, a Little like Fear
Fandom: Captain America: The Winter Soldier
Pairings: Winter Soldier/Reader
Main Song: Honey and the Bee by Owl City
Challenge: 100 Drabble Adventure

Where Gods Do Fear to Tread
Fandom: Marvel Cinematic Universe
Pairing: Currently Bruce/Reader
Main Song: N/A
Challenge: 9 Months

Coming Eventually
(If I can ever actually finish any of the above stories.)

Fandom: Captain America: The Winter Soldier
Pairings: OC/Reader; Brock Rumlow/Reader
Main Song: TBA
Challenge: 20 Every Day Questions

To That Distant Future
Fandom: (Pre-)Captain America: The First Avenger
Pairings: Steve Rogers/Reader; Bucky Barnes/Reader
Main Song: TBA
Challenge: Childhood Memories

A Stab in the Dark
Fandom: Guardians of the Galaxy
Pairing: Nebula/Reader
Main Song: TBA
Challenge: NA/TBA

All That Glitters
Fandom: Agent Carter
Pairing: Polyamorous Peggy/Reader/Angie
Main Song: TBA
Challenge: Yuri For Every Occasion

Fandom: Avengers
Pairing: Steve Rogers/Reader
Main Song: TBA
Challenge: Dont'd Tooch My Mommy!

To Win an Agent in 14 Days
Fandom: Avengers
Pairing: Clint/Reader; Tony/Natasha
Main Song: TBA
Challenge: To Win a Girl in ____ Days!

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Happy Birthday! :D
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Why thank you!
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You're welcome :) Hope it was good
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Thank you for the favorite, Straw! :D
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Aw, thanks.
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